As we go into this New Year (and over halfway through this decade), I’m going to talk about some advice I’ve was given and keep telling myself in times of triumph and doubt: stop being afraid.
Too many times growing up, I and people close to me have let fear of the opinions of others control their actions. What is more, they have let the fears of themselves inhibit their way to success. Even now in the adult world and work force I have seen my fellow Cast Members let others participate in misconduct and false assumption of their fellows purely because of their rank. In the past, I have ignored this or just kept my distance. Not anymore.
This past year, Project Stripes has taken some significant developmental leaps aside other project’s I’m working with. Arthur, the main character, has been with me through life-threatening situations, to the very rooms where Jo composed the Philosopher’s Stone, to receiving my university degree and the threshold of the adult world. Along the way I think it’s safe to say I’ve learned more from him and the other characters than they have from me. I only want to touch on this subject because I’ve written of it before in ‘Losing is Better?‘ and ‘Intrinsic Motivation: A Paradox.’ The point, how it relates to this post, is how making these characters individuals in my life has allowed me to learn from the situations I put them in and seek their wisdom when I was unable to go to anyone else. One important lesson was learning to ask myself what I want, and how I could get it. I wrote about how I was afraid of publishing, of what it would do to my freedom as an artist with the constrictions from contracts. The thought still causes trepidation; however, thanks to what I have put Arthur through, I have decided that I would not be afraid of pushing myself to really try to get published. I’m not going to let the fears of my own potential for greatness hold me back anymore. I know as I grow and develop with my characters, I will be ready for the changes publication will bring.
It may sound conceded, to speak about my own potential for greatness. So be it. The people who are going through this same plight will understand the importance of valuing oneself and the need to stop being afraid of what one is capable of. If you grow to understand yourself, you can do what frightens you. That’s another piece of advice an old friend once told me: do something that scares you every day. And when we’re honest with ourselves, what we want and our part in the world, the only thing we need to fear is fear (thanks FDR).
This is a pivotal time in my life. I may have a job now at Disney, but in five months, I will be faced with the same decision I had to make last year: do I seek a higher position at the Company or move on somewhere else? While here, I have the time to get my book further down the track to the Publication Station. I can’t abuse this time. Yes, I need to enjoy what opportunities I have here and can get nowhere else. That does not mean I can be negligent with my free time. I cannot be afraid of writing rubbish in the few minutes before or between work because there’s something on the page. Rubbish I can work with; It’s easier than nothing. Be not afraid of rubbish. Any progress is progress. I’m going to be more assertive this year with what I want with my writing as well as at the gym. It’s time to not be afraid of the Dragon, the inner potential. Learn to control it like Bruce Banner’s Hulk and there’s limitless potential.